I have always had plans focused on the distant future, the next few weeks, and the day. It becomes very easy to lose track of plans and become depressed with lack of results. Therefore I plan to write up a plan today and revisit it in 3 months, at the end of September.
Long Term Plans:
Take step 2 cs on July 11 in LA. OB/GYN rotation takes place July and August. Then take the month of September off to study and apply. Send out ERAS to schools in mid September and take Step 2 CK at the end of September.
Figure out what to specialize in. I have been telling everyone that I was going into pathology for the last 3 months, but now it seems like that would simply be…boring? Too comfortable? What I realized recently is that everyone has their own personal legend (a term I took from The Alchemist), in which they drive themselves internally to achieve a goal that is personal to them alone. For me, I have been thinking about going abroad and either doing the Peace Corp or WHO or Doctors Without Borders. I have contacted the recruiter for the Peace Corp, however, I don’t know if it would be worthwhile to do, as it may be very difficult to bounce back into a grueling academic setting after doing something so different for 2 years. I told my Dad yesterday about my desire to go abroad and he told me to go into family med as that is a universally understood field that is chronically in demand. You just sacrifice status and pay relative to other fields. I’ll think about all of this.
Approach more women. I have tried online dating and briefly dated a girl this last year, but I have not been satisfied with this situation. A few years ago I read up on pickup and I read forums and subreddits about it. I know the theory, but theory is completely in vain without any practice. Practice is the only thing that matters. It just comes so unnaturally to me, as I assume it does for everyone. An effort must actually be made on my part to change this. Realistically what am I going to do though? I can’t go to clubs in the middle of the week – or even on the weekends now that I think about it…Online dating was OK, and I’ll just take a break from it until I’m done with OB/GYN, just to clear my head and work on myself. Instead, I will try to approach in the daytime. This is much easier to rationalize yourself out of, however, I should be able to hold myself more accountable with this blog…I’ll do more approaches and write about them here. The worst thing that happens will be that I end up with a story.
Write: I wrote a book between 25-27 and gave it to my cousin to edit. I should get in touch with her…Apart from that, I need to start a new project. I have the notes for another book like the first, however, the first one wrapped up well enough to make anything similar to it feel derivative. I tentatively have a plan for a detective story.
Music: I have the ideas for an album, however, I don’t have the manpower. The plan is to create song demos, then contact people who can help expand each song, then to record a final version in a studio. Put it for free online. The point is to create. You’re not going to make money in music. So, I need software and to set up for recording.
There are 5 things that I plan to do every day. When I do them all, I put an “X” on my calendar. Ideally I would have a chain of “X”s in a row and I would have further incentive not to break the chain. However, the longest chain I had was 20 days. I think writing this in this blog will help out. The 5 things are
1. Diet: I have simply tried eating less that 1800 calories/day. That was the only restriction. That’s how I’ve been for a few years. Recently though, I plan to try something new. I googled “How to get a 6 pack” (I know, I know…) but I came across a 8 week diet plan from Men’s Fitness. If I coordinate it right, I’ll cook everything on Saturdays (which is what I did today) and plate everything the night before for each day. This takes a long time on Saturday, but it shouldn’t take too long in the week. Hopefully I’ll see some change in 8 weeks.
2. Exercise: I really just plan to workout every day for 20 minutes. I have a 5 day cycle: Arms, Delts, Chest, Back, and Legs. Consistency is key here more than a definite goal. The gains will really be made with adherence to the diet.
3. Meditate: I have found this weirdly difficult to do. It always seems like a chore, even though I realize I can think clearer after and that I become more productive. I’ll try to do this first thing in the morning and before any studying.
4. No Porn: This one is pretty easy once I get away from it for a few days. The benefits are much more mental than the other things on the list. It affect libido by giving an artificial stimulus to a real human instinct. Without the stimulus, libido and sexual response feels much more natural. Relapse with this usually was due to the fact that I lumped all 5 together. I would say, “Oh I ate too much today. I won’t be able to mark an x on my calendar. I may as well see what porn I’ve missed.”
5. Questions: I have tried to do at least some questions from a Q bank every day, either Kaplan or USMLE World. As of now, I finished the first pass of uworld and still have the majority of Kaplan to do. However, I am around 30th percentile in uworld because I rushed it just to finish. I need to redo them until I know them solid. Then the plan is to get “Doctors in Training for Step 2 CK” for September. In fact I should get that now.
Alright, now that I’ve written out my long-term and short-term plans I feel pretty motivated! I made a note in my calendar on my phone to check back to this post in 3 months to see how it all goes.